out of the moment (jcharles00) wrote,
out of the moment
jcharles00

funerals..

..seem weirder the older I get. My Grandma Reynolds passed away last week. Her death is maybe less emotional for me than others in the past because it was really time. ..or maybe I'm just getting desensitized to it. Either way, she wasn't having a good time. Her heart just kept getting weaker and weaker, and for a person like her who thrives on independence, being forced to slow down was the worst possible thing to happen. It didn't help that she fell and broke her sternum a month ago. I can't imagine the pain given her condition.

So the viewing was today. It's strange how little corpses look like their former inhabitants. It's weird that we put the body on display. It makes me wonder about the reasons that custom started and has endured.. proof of their passing? I guess the more relevant part of the whole thing for me is seeing family and family friends that I don't see very often. That part makes sense, I guess, although it really puts into perspective how loaded up with random crap our lives are and how little we're connected to even the people closest to us.

Grandma was a pretty big presence in most of my life. I will miss her. Definitely not the same without her around.
Tags: family, funerals, grandma
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